Oh!
It seems that me and the team (from work) are meeting at six and then going to the bar. That should be interesting. How do I keep calm in light of the fact that I don’t drink alcohol (and even have difficulty spelling it)? How do I maintain my status as ‘one of the boys’ when I’m going to stick out like a pink iPhone?
But it’s just not worth the hassle to announce that I want to stay in my room and read my book, and go on my blog until hunger drives me out to find pizza. Is it?
I do still have the lingering hope that I might fit in, one of these days. That I might actually enjoy myself in the company of men. And that’s what’s making me meet them at six. The faint hope that I might just be okay.
To be honest, I prefer the company of women. No, actually – that’s wrong when I think about it. I prefer the company of people who I can have a sensible (and yet senseless) conversation with. People who are like me. People who aren’t too afraid to say what’s on their mind and see where that leads them.
Having said that, I’m not really sure what form such a conversation would take. It used to be that it would involve flirtation. But I can’t really do that now. It’s against the rules. And besides, I couldn’t do that with blokes! Well, I could. But I wouldn’t want to. People can get the wrong impression you know!
Anyway, it’s thirty-eight minutes past five and so I have twenty-two minutes to gird my loins, so to speak. I’m sure it’ll be okay. Just so long as I don’t fall into the wrong kind of silence. That’d be the worst thing. If a bout of self-consciousness came over me and I went quiet, that’d be that. I’d be dead in the water.
How about if I pretend to be drunk? Yeah – that’d do the trick. An evening of pretending to be drunk!
Gah. Kill me now.
(kiddin’)
You will be okay , Robert.
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I’m sure. And it’s now! Gotta run!!
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*coming to kill you*
Listen, I know, I’m too young to say this, but I have been told this by someone very much experienced and good…… Don’t try to fit in, deliberately, what will happen, will happen. What’s the worst thing that can happen? Whatever it is, it’ll be forgotten, but if you try to fit in, you will be just another brick in the wall.
And somehow I think it went well.
Maybe I said a lot of things I shouldn’t have. Sorry, if you don’t like them.
Warmest wishes and regards,
Debadrita
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You said a lot of things that make sense. It’s good advice and you should carry on giving it. Yeah, the evening went pretty well actually. They drank beer and I drank water. They had meat and I had veg. They talked loudly and I talked about the same sort of stuff I usually talk about. It’s all good.
How old are you really, Debadrita?
Kindness – Robert.
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I’m glad it turned out well.
Once, you said, that we should accept others the way they are and not try to change them. Maybe we should do that for ourselves too and be what we are, trying not to keep up with other’s expectations….
Turned 16 this June. I’m a cute, chubby, baby girl 😂😂
Debadrita
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I agree on both points. Utterly charming. 🙂
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If I don’t sleep now, I’ll die. Oh, I guess I’m getting too much sleep and lazying about because of the two bad weeks of the month.
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Bad weeks, huh. Much pain?
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Apart from the tiredness and weariness, discomfort and pain in the waist and legs, it’s not much bad.
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Oh, that’s okay then. So long as it’s nothing too serious. 😦
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I used to suffer the painful cramps Before the cysts were diagnosed.
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The medicine helps?
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No cramps, but prolonged duration.
And makes me unfit and weak. You get the idea
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I get the idea. You don’t feel like moving around too much. That’s a beeatch if you want to shake off some weight. Sympathise and all of that.
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Haha. Right. Now I’m lazy and fat!!! 😂😂😂 That’s pathetic
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It’ll change. Everything changes. 🙂
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Hope you are right….
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But then the medicines made them go. So, it’s all good now. 😃 Don’t worry
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Ah – you answered my question already. Not worrying, just curious and … supportive? 🙂
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That’s good. 😁 Thanks. Had a nice day?
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Always have a good day. Even when I don’t, I still do. Don’t know if that makes sense. 🙂
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It does. I know what you mean. It can’t be explained 😁
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Then I won’t try. 🙂
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I do have the same emotions. But if you think you can, I’m all ears 👂 👂
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No need – we both understand. 🙂
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Yeah. 😁
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Well, by the time you read this, you are hopefully fake-drunk and forgot I didn’t send you a message last week to wish you well, etc. 🙂
So, for upcoming week; all the best, enjoy the weekend and big hugs! XxX
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Ah, it all went well last week, so that’s okay. 🙂
Fake drunk worked for a while and then it stopped and the party broke up and we all went back to the hotel.
Hugs and all of thay to you for this week, next and maybe even the one after that you ration it out. 😀
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I can relate (too well) to your dilemma; I also blow every social event out of proportion. Just taking myself too seriously, I guess. Most of the time, I feel awkward and bored at these things, but in hindsight, it’s never as bad as I feared it would be. It’s good for the mind/soul to get out of one’s comfort zone once in a while, innit?
*gives you a pat on the back in solidarity*
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I was okay while I wanted to pretend, but bored after I got fed up with that. But overall – it was okay. 🙂
Thanks for the pat – appreciated.
You done with your going away parties yet?
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You survived! (Did you see me waving my pink pom poms in the background? 😉)
What are friends for? Oh, never mind, you don’t know the answer. 😁
Nopr, three more social events to go. Hopefully, we’ll be able to give away some of the stuff we won’t be taking with us. I don’t like throwing things away.
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I did! (Nope. Too busy having fun. 🙂 )
Yeah, still not sure on the friends thang.
Ha – three more! Wow!
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(Glad you managed to have some fun pretending. You must be a good actor. 😊)
Me neither.
Yep. (*sigh) Oh well, more opportunities to hone my acting skills, right?
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Never thought about it as ‘acting’ but yeah – you’re right – that’s exactly what it is! 🙂
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And the Oscar goes to … Robert C Day! 🏆😁
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Thanks to all my family and frien … oh, wait!
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You’re gonna have to think of a better speech. 😁
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Ha – very true. But who’ll listen anyway. 🙂
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Why, all your fans, of course! *wondering why he’s using self-deprecating humour even though he doesn’t like it when others do*
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Oh. Yeah. Okay.
*thinks – oh. yeah. okay.*
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Nice rhythm. 😊
Got one of those social things this evening. Aaaarrrgh!
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Oh. Why you in such a good mood then? 🙂
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Just because I have a social thing in the evening doesn’t mean I mope around for hours and hours beforehand. I just deal with it as it comes. Fortunately, I’m not a big worrier. You?
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Not unless it’s worth worrying about. Something big. 🙂
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If we were rational creatures, we would never worry. Worry does nothing, but it makes us feel as if we’re doing something about the situation we’re worrying about.
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What?
So there’s no such thing as positive worry? Or proactive worry? Or pre-emptive worry? Or get-you-worry-in-before-it’s-too-late worry?
For shame! Someone should write in to The Times and complain!
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Worry by itself does nothing. It’s the actions one takes that makes the difference. Actions without worry works just as well as actions with worry. Actually, the latter doesn’t work as well, because worry drains energy.
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What happens Robert . Are u okay? Seems like you aren’t fine
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I’m fine! It’s all good. If you check the next post after this, all is explained and all is well. Thanks for being concerned, though – that’s appreciated. 🙂
How are you, my dear?
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I’m good Robert . Mercy by Almighty living happily with my husband 😊
One message for you is cheer up and be happy always! 👍🏻
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I’m cheered just by knowing that your care is in the world – thank you. 🙂
Blessings to you and your husband.
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Thanks a lot Robert and stay happy
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