Comfortably Numb

Lots of things happen to me. And many reactions of all different kinds arise as a result of these things. I win a prize and I get happy. Someone tells me I’m fat and I get sad. How do I stop these reactions? And do I want to (or need to)?

One way to stop these reactions, both the good ones and the bad ones, is to be aware of the presence of God in my heart. I mean, God is always good and benevolent and is an unlimited source of power and peace. Being aware of this, in the sense of staring into a bright light, can take away my awareness of other things. This can be a cleansing experience.

It’s like using using one of those absorbent cloths to wipe up a spilled glass of water. You end up with a dry surface, but also, it’s an empty surface because the glass has to be moved, and the toaster and the pile of recycled plastic bags and the kitchen roll holder and the random bottles of pills etc. etc. And it’s the emptiness that bothers me.

I could allow all of my mental processes to be blotted up by this blissful state of union with God. I could give over vast swathes of time to this emptiness. Times when I read, learn Hindi (my latest thing), watch movies, listen to music or even attend to my blog could all be subsumed by a tsunami of sweet God-consciousness.

I worry though. I worry that I’ll become zombified. I worry that my mind will turn to mush and I’ll end up like one of those people in a care home that just sit there staring into space while the world whirls around them in all its colourful profusion. That vision alarms me and, to be honest, scares me a little.

But I’m sure there must be a middle way. One in which I engage with the world and yet don’t let it affect me in a negative way. One in which I can be detached from the bad stuff and yet still be in love with all the wonders of the world and nature.

I guess that it’s all about having a balanced approach to life. And then, all the cliches flood into my mind. We all know them so I’ll not bother repeating them here. In essence – I’ll just do the best I can and not worry about what I can’t manage. That’ll do.

Right, that’s the world set to rights – how about a nice cup of tea.

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