Just had a flashback of a dream I had this morning. Can’t share it with you. Too rude. With a capital R. You’ll just have to imagine.
It was so entertaining that I switched the alarm off, put my head back in the same position on the pillow and went back to sleep for another three quarters of an hour. Almost got back into the dream. It was like I was walking around outside – peering through the window at the scenes. Strange sensation.
Have you ever gotten back into a dream successfully?
Given the choice between making people weep and enabling them to laugh (not that anyone has given me that choice (or even that ability)) I would rather make folks laugh. Sure, there’s a certain pride involved in being able to wring tears from the eyes of readers, but isn’t there enough sadness in the world already without me pissing more into the pot?
Sitting in the waiting room at Peterborough railway station enjoying a bit of nosh and a read of my book when I look up to see the other two people in the room staring, rapt, at the monitor showing the train times.
Am just contemplating saying to them not much on TV tonight is there, when one of them looks away from the screen and catches me staring at him with a big grin on my face.
I rather judge the moment to have passed and so look down, rather shamefacedly, at my book. Ho hum.
Walking through a churchyard and I came across a stone telling me that Thomas Somrbody-or-other was buried near there (apparently he had something to do with HMS Victory) and I thought that’s nice of them.
When we (yeah, the royal we) get cloning up to sctatch, we’ll have plenty of genetic material to play with. So if, for instance, we need a goood boat designer, we can make a copy of Thomas and pick his brains.
Similarly, it’d be nice to chat to a newly cloned Buddha. I’m sure he’d have some interesting things to say. Because, of course, his mind would be cloned along with his body, right?
So, assuming this gets off (or out of) the ground, who, from the annals of history, would you like to sit down and have a chat with?
Behind the camera is me – walking along Ipswich Quay at sunrise – as you do.
The meal last night went without a hitch. We all met at six and walked around the corner to the restaurant (another word I have difficulty spelling). Alcohol flowed and voices got louder. Food came and we ate and voices got louder still.
I was interested for a while and my voice got loud too, even though I was drinking water, but there came a point where it seemed to me that it was all a little too boorish. Seemed to me that people were talking louder and louder just be to be heard and to get their (oh so precious) point over.
One of the managers just seemed to take over (fuelled by alcohol and ego no doubt) and the rest of us just gave up. The big boss busied himself with messages on his phone; the other manager began to make agreement sounds (hmm, hmm); one of the programmers just carried on being as quiet as he always was; the other programmer kept smiling and nodding, but not saying much; and I just recorded my impressions so that I could write them up the next day (aka now).
So, all in all – it was okay. I even got an early night.
(follows on from The faint hope that it’ll be okay)
It seems that me and the team (from work) are meeting at six and then going to the bar. That should be interesting. How do I keep calm in light of the fact that I don’t drink alcohol (and even have difficulty spelling it)? How do I maintain my status as ‘one of the boys’ when I’m going to stick out like a pink iPhone?
But it’s just not worth the hassle to announce that I want to stay in my room and read my book, and go on my blog until hunger drives me out to find pizza. Is it?
I do still have the lingering hope that I might fit in, one of these days. That I might actually enjoy myself in the company of men. And that’s what’s making me meet them at six. The faint hope that I might just be okay.
To be honest, I prefer the company of women. No, actually – that’s wrong when I think about it. I prefer the company of people who I can have a sensible (and yet senseless) conversation with. People who are like me. People who aren’t too afraid to say what’s on their mind and see where that leads them.
Having said that, I’m not really sure what form such a conversation would take. It used to be that it would involve flirtation. But I can’t really do that now. It’s against the rules. And besides, I couldn’t do that with blokes! Well, I could. But I wouldn’t want to. People can get the wrong impression you know!
Anyway, it’s thirty-eight minutes past five and so I have twenty-two minutes to gird my loins, so to speak. I’m sure it’ll be okay. Just so long as I don’t fall into the wrong kind of silence. That’d be the worst thing. If a bout of self-consciousness came over me and I went quiet, that’d be that. I’d be dead in the water.
How about if I pretend to be drunk? Yeah – that’d do the trick. An evening of pretending to be drunk!
Gah. Kill me now.