I surprises me to find that I’m just as messed up now as I was when I was a teenager. But it also pleases me to find that I have much the same spirit of adventure and creativity I had when I was a teen.
I don’t think that I’ll ever figure out what life is really about. There are just too many aspects for me to compute them all at once. Maybe I’ll work it out as I suck in my last breath – or maybe a moment (or so) after that air leaves my body – never to return.
I’m quite looking forward to dying – not that I want it to happen any time soon! It seems to me that it’ll be that last great adventure – the chance to know what no-one has been able to come back and tell us. I want to be awake and aware as I pass away. I want to train my mind to be able to process this information as it happens. I want to be capable of surviving it.
Strikes me that I’m not making much progress in this. I mean – I can’t even seem to persuade my conscious awareness to survive falling asleep, much less falling into the Big Sleep. I need to do more work. I need to be more aware of my depths. I need to be stronger.
I need to stop typing this now so that I can practice falling asleep whilst remaining aware of what’s around me.
Just another day at the office – right?
Yay, I’m also just as messed up as I’ve ever been. Can I join your club? 😁
No luck with lucid dreaming yet? Those dreams are so fun and enlightening at the same time.
Okay, better charge my phone now. Bis später!
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I used to have lucid dreams more often than I do now. Not sure how to get back into them.
Yes – for sure you can join this club – it’s called The Entire Human Race. 🙂
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Hmm … weird. Ah, so we’re all messed up. Good to know.
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I maybe am extrapolating a little too much.
Any tips on the lucidity question? 🙂
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I wish I had some tips for you regarding lucid dreaming. It comes effortlessly to me.
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That’s okay – I’ll just look it up on Google – I’ll be having lucid-lucid (extra lucid) dreams by the end of the week. See you there. 🙂
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See me where?
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In my dreams? The lucid ones? It was a joke. As if two people that were having a lucid dream at the same time could see each other. Perhaps I’m getting confused between lucid dreams and astral travel. Do you do that too?
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I know you were joking. 😉 No, I’ve never done astral travel before – not in this lifetime, anyway. That would be frightening and thrilling at the same time!
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Maybe I’ll just go straight for Astral Travel and skip over Lucid Creaming. 🙂
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Um … creaming? No comment.
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Oops, slip of the digit – should have read ‘dreaming’. 🙂
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Slippery indeed.
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🙂
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Or parallel dimensions…
Again, right there with ya…
I still lucid-dream pretty well…I usually use a tool, like a (fictional or fictionalised) muse…then I write a bunch of “bad” poetry about that experience. LOL
See you on the dream side of the world! (joke)…
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Great thoughts robert
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Well, that’s creative. A nice way to look at the great sleep. Sure takes some of the fear away.
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Good to hear it, Lisa. Contrary to what some feel about this piece, it’s not really about death or depression, it’s more like a celebration of life. Well, that’s my take on it anyway. 🙂
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I think I’m even more messed up than from when I was a teenager, because I’m not ashamed of it and I can better analyze it hehe. One of my writer friends has a story where the character takes his own life not due to any other reason but curiosity. It’s an interesting concept on paper of course.
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Reminds me of a saying – curiosity killed the cat! Me? I’m going to finish this level before I try tackling the next one – if you know what I mean. 🙂
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I hear ya’….being messed up is a healthy sign at this point in our lives (that’s what I’m banking on, anyway). I believe what’s needed is the courage to follow our respective paths–no matter how winding and rough they are at times. Thanks for sharing 🙂
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You’re welcome, Truly. 🙂
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